Saturday, February 4, 2017

Where I've been and where I'm going

Hello friends,

It's been a good long while since I have posted. I guess the last post must have been a surprise to read after a long silence. Sometimes it takes a purge to get things moving in the right direction. 

So where have I been and what have I been doing? Well I was working full time, but had my hours cut just before Christmas last year so this has given me 20 hours of time to sink back into the place where it has always belongs and always should have stayed. I have felt really guilty about it for a long time and I am trying to let that go and just move forward. When I went through my big life change it hit me very hard. All the things I loved were very hard for me to do and in a time of need those are usually the things on which you fall back to help heal. One of those things was glass. I still don't know exactly what happened and why it has been so hard to go back to the thing that had won over my heart. I think it might have felt like if I was doing glass that my past would come back with it and no longer want any part of my past, only my future. 

I took a little artistic detour and really dove back into mixed-media and I felt like as long as I was creating somewhere it would bring me back around to glass. Infact I need to come up with a way to combine the two and really create something unique and awesome!

Here is one of my flower mandala's with water colors, distress inks, paint markers, shimmer watercolors and some images of my carved print below.

It was really cool to do a print after so many years. The last time I did one of these I was in highschool!

I have really been falling in love with sacred geometry and chakras. This piece is on recycled fiber board and features the heart chakra and flower of life.

Christian has even been joining me in the studio from time to time.

Here is one of his pieces using some Artistcellar stencils.

I have had the pleasure of being a part of the Artistcellar Design team. Lisa Cosineau is the lead of this amazing group and owner of Artistcellar.  On the team we receive awesome art products, create art and blog about our creations. You can check out my and the other artists  blog posts here. It's been very therapeutic to sit at a table and create even though it takes WAY longer than making some beads ;) 

Speaking of beads I have decided to go and sell in some of the lovely Facebook bead auction groups. I currently have some things I just listed for sale in the LBA Galleria Elementals group here.

Here are some of the goodies I have up for auction currently :)

My and Christian's art will be on display at a local vegetarian/vegan restaurant called Cafe Gratitude in March. So I have been busily creating some art with that in mind.

I have also started selling in a few auction groups on Facebook like, LBA Galleria Eclectia(Lampwork Bead Addicts), which is a group that sells wearable art and home decor. So my mixed-media work fits in just perfectly there :)

I have also been participating in a fun local thing called Free Art Friday Kansas City. The idea of the group is to leave some of your art out in Kansas City with a photo clue to find it. If you find it, it's yours to keep for free! Here is one of my prints from my carved block above left at a local gay bar and dance club down the street from where I live called, Missie B's.

I have some shows scheduled for the LBA Designers Galleria March 1st and April 2nd, so keep an eye out for that as  those times get closer.

My baby bear, Christian and me.

I had a great talk with Christian last night when we were laying in the dark talking before we went to bed. He reminded me to just simplify my life. He told me to just focus on my art and to just create because it's what I love. To not put expectations on it and to just do it. That everything will fall into place and to just keep at it. It's crazy how we tend to over complicate things when things are actually so simple. I am so thankful for my wonderful partner that provides me with such balance and simplicity. I so greatly admire his free spirit and his joy for life and living in the moment. 

I think that is all I will leave you with today, but I will see you soon with more awesome art to share.

Thanks for coming back to see me. I have missed you more than you will ever know!

xoxo Genea

Thursday, February 2, 2017

A purge to let the healing and light in.

I awoke today feeling like I needed to make peace with my sister. So I just began writing. I let the words pour out and unfold here. I let the pour out just like they did in my head and left them to just come out whichever way they did and not worry about if they made sense. Just like leaving a page to my journal open. Raw emotion just getting the things in my head and in my heart out in words on a screen. I just needed to purge these places in my soul and allow for light and healing to come in....

I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry for hurting you. I felt very hurt and rejected when you and mom had unfriended me on facebook. I feel like unfriend is pretty aggressive when you can just unfollow someone if you don't want to see their feed. I noticed it around the time of my birthday and it hurt that much more. So from that point on I decided to push the family away so that I no longer had to be hurt by feeling rejected, unloved, or unappreciated. It broke my heart really. After you have had 2 "forever's" leave your life and then feel rejected or just like you don't fit in with your family I felt very alone. They say when you don't have anyone else you can always count on your family. I didn't feel like that was true anymore. Over the years I have felt disconnected from the family and like at family events things were forced and not everyone wanted to be there, but were there by obligation. I hated feeling that way and I didn't want anyone to feel that way about being at my birthday or any other event. I wanted people to genuinely be there because they wanted to. I had this dream of what I felt like family and family relationships were supposed to look like. When we were growing up I felt close to you until you turned about 16. I remember you used to come down the stairs to my room in the basement and we would hang out when you got home from school. I don't remember the exact day when that stopped, but I had realized you were growing up and that you were ready to hang out with your friends instead of me. I was sad, but understand how growing up goes. I thought about the relationship I had dreamed of having with you as a sister where we were the best of friends, where we knew each other's secrets and we would always be able to count on each other and be there for each other through everything. I thought to myself how lucky I was to have a sister that could be my best friend and how some people had always dreamed of having a sister. My heart was broken when I had accepted that my dream of how a sister's relationship should be was not going to be the case for us.
I know at one point I felt like you had also wanted a close relationship with me as well, and I can't remember the exact situation, but I remember you talking to me while I was driving in the car crying and wanting to understand why I was being the way I was. I remember feeling sad for hurting you, but I can't remember the rest.
In fact I was broken hearted about how my family relationship wasn't going to be the dream connection I had always hoped it would be too. Where all of us were the closest of friends. Even though there was mom you, and me I never felt like we had balanced relationships with each other. I was close with mom for a very long time until I remember having a conversation with her and telling her something that was going on in my life and feeling judged and like she was disappointed in what I was doing. From that point on I stopped talking with her about the very raw and intimate details of my life. I feel like at that point that is when she began forming a stronger relationship with you. You two bonded and got close and were so much more alike. I felt like it was you two and then me. It seemed like all 3 of use couldn't really always get along all together at the same time so it was just easier to hang out with you two separately. When we were all together I felt like you both sided against me. As time went on I stopped sharing the intimate details of my heart with you as well. I felt like you would understand me sometimes like mom used to, but then other times I felt judged. I wanted to connect so badly and just share my true heart and feelings always, but realized it was unwise to even though I fell back into over sharing my life many times and feeling the same way after. After awhile I just stopped sharing my life with either one of you for fear of judgment.
When I went through my first divorce I remember crying one day to mom in the kitchen and her telling me I just needed to "get over it". It had only been 2 weeks after my split and I was a mess. I had already felt like my whole world had fallen apart and when I went to my family for comfort I was dismissed because I was made to feel like I should be back on to getting on with my life like nothing had happened. that left a big scar for me. If you have never had this happen to you, you can never understand just how abandoned you feel when what you thought would be your forever is suddenly gone, and when you feel like you can lean on your family for support and are rejected by that place of comfort too you feel very alone. I know you all probably did the best you could, and I do appreciate what you did for me. I guess I just needed more support. I can't really put into words what it feels like to feel so out of control with what is going on in your life. I was only 21 and still figuring out my life. Somewhere in growing up I never established a strong sense of self. I am sure some small event in my childhood has caused this feeling, but I am not sure where it started.
A few months later I started dating who would become my second husband and dated for 3 long years before deciding on another "forever". At this time I was 24 and once again had felt safe in a relationship that maybe my first husband was just my "practice husband" and that I was comfortable to settle into my new life. After 9 years of being married and 12 years of being together I was wrong. I knew we were drifting apart, but I didn't expect our relationship would just suddenly end. I thought that while I was having a big period of growth in my life I could still grow and be in my marriage. I was wrong. As much as I see now that it was a good thing to be separated from that life it hit me hard. Again, I had to start over, which I had told myself from my first marriage I would never let this happen to me again(where I wouldn't be established on my own so if a split did happen I would be able to take care of myself). I let my glass business fall to the wayside while I scrambled to get a job so I could afford to live. I got a shitty car and got a roommate. I made some desperate decisions as I scrambled to get my life expenses taken care of.
I fell back to the family for support and got some, but I still struggled and felt alone. Again  I appreciated what was done for me, but I felt like you all felt like I was being a burden or needed too much help. Again, if you have not been through a divorce or even 2 it is hard to even comprehend what that feels like and what it is to go through all this. I didn't feel like anyone understood me or what I was going through. I felt like maybe if there was more of an understanding I would have received more compassion. I didn't want to have to ask for things or ask for help, but I was desperate and had to ask many, many times. I was never trying to take advantage of anyone and appreciated all the help I received.
I had appreciated you offering to help me have a safe place to get my life together at your place, but then felt as if I had accepted that I would almost be treated like a child having so many rules and expectations. I didn't want to burden you or mom, and that is how I felt. If the situation would have been reversed I would have just done things differently. I would have let you all stay with me for sure whatever the situation was even if I only had a mattress to offer you on which to sleep with no time frame of leaving. When all of your life is changing and you feel like you can't count on anything in your life staying the same it's hard to make a promise you can stick to if you don't even know how much you will earn or how long it will take you to get established on your own starting with nothing.  I would have fed you meals(which you did and I appreciated), cried with you, held you and let you fall apart, talked with you for hours, helped you look for jobs and apply until you had found work,  just been there to help you transition. I know everyone has their separate lives and family, but know that I am always here for you in whatever life situation I am in. Even if I don't have much, I will always be here and give you whatever I can. Know how much you are loved and that I will not pass judgment on whatever your situation is, but welcome you with loving arms.
I'm not perfect. I have given up trying to be. I am just human trying to do the best I can with what I have. I am sorry I was not in Ayla's life like you had envisioned the perfect aunt to be. My life was transitioning and falling apart and I barely had any energy to function myself, much less be the amazing aunt I had wished to be or that you had hoped I would be. I love her I'm sad she doesn't know me and that I have not been in her life as she has grown up. I am just a stranger to her. I never wanted that, but if I am not close with you, I can't be close with her either. After awhile I just gave up. Maybe I just needed to accept this was not my place in life. That maybe I was born into the family, but it wasn't my true place. It broke my heart. Cancer's are all about family and relationships, but I can't force what isn't mine to have. So I have just tried to accept and look for the place where I belong.
I have no expectations from this message. I just felt like you deserved to know what happened or know what was in my heart if it was something that you had wished to know. I just needed to write this to you for me so that I can make peace in my heart. I do love you. I never stopped. I just didn't want to hurt so I just removed myself.
In this time of transition from my first two lifetimes to my third, you would think one would fall back on the things they love for comfort and healing in a time of loss and transition, but the things that I loved and that gave me comfort only furthered my sadness. I couldn't listen to music, hula hoop, or make glass. I am still having a hard time going back to hooping and glass. I don't know what makes me feel stuck there. Maybe the fear of failing at not being able to make a living at glass? Just how much has changed in the glass business world or feeling like I have lost all of my following of people? Feeling like if I go back to glass that I am just revisiting my past?
A few months later I connected with my newest love and felt happy again. I felt like I was put in the path of a person that was in a similar part of their life as me. I felt like my younger self that didn't develop between the ages of 18-24 was connected with a person of a similar age of where I needed to do some repairs and  growth. I feel a connection like I have never felt before with any of the other partners in my life. I feel a true soul connection. A soul connection that is the other half whole half of my soul, my twin flame soul mate. As wonderful as it is to be connected with my souls reflection I am still growing and still redefining myself. I still feel lost in ways and eager to heal all of the hurts in my life from my childhood, through my couple lifetimes, and up to now.
I felt like glass was my true calling and my life's purpose, but after taking a break from it and having my following fall away I feel alone again in my business aspect of life. I began to question if this was something I needed to leave behind for my new path, but I don't feel a burning passion for that next new business path like I did when I fell madly in love with glass. I turned to mixed-media and have found much joy in that, but don't really know where to take it now. It's hard to build a new business from the ground up again. This business is different from glass and the ways you build a glass business are slightly different. That and I feel like maybe the way I built my glass business didn't work and maybe I need to try different things to re-build the glass and merge it with the mixed-media. I feel like this round it's just me and there is something terrifying about just thinking everything all depends on me and I am the only one that can do this. Why is this so scary this time? I have done this before and been successful with it. When did I stop trusting myself and knowing I am capable of anything I can dream up? I hate the job I am in now just to make a paycheck so why the hell am I still there? I have been looking for some stable income jobs while I still created art, but have been finding it hard to balance it all. Being this black and white personality I am either all in our all out. This middle ground is new for me. I guess the universe puts us in the path of growth and this is what I am supposed to be learning now. Maybe all of my leaves have been stripped away to just me so that I will truly learn to count and depend on myself and know that I can do this? I am so fortunate to be in a place of being able to grow and develop in myself, but also be with my partner at the same time. He has helped me to grow so much. He has not just dove in to help me get things figured out, but has pushed me out into a space and allowed me to trust myself and figure things out. Where I just want to hold onto his hand and be shy, he is helping me to trust in my development and being there to celebrate my triumphs with me.

I have developed and grown so much in this last year and a half. Spiritual growth and enlightenment and has been a lonely place, but necessary. I have had the opportunity to feel the new vibration and higher frequency at which I am resonating. I smile when I get to receive the love and light I give out reflected back at me and to understand how I make the people around me feel. It lets me know I am growing into myself and becoming my greatest version. I still have so much to learn and so much more growing to do. I have lots of things to figure out, but I guess I get closer and closer to them every day. I feel like all is coming together, but has not completely come into focus yet . I am so eager for all things to connect and understand how all of the things I have experienced have brought me to this moment I am in now. 

Thursday, November 24, 2016

30% OFF Black Friday and Shaman Sale! 20% OFF Saturday- Monday!

Hello friends!

So before I get into the details of the sale, I just want to refer you to the second part of this newsletter that goes into why I am having this sale. Christian has been suffering with a stomach ulcer for the last year(and we just realized this was the problem recently). For the full details please read below.

It's that time of year again to spread some holiday cheer in the form of artistic gifts for all of those special people on our lists. I have just stuffed the shop full of new beads just before I sent over this newsletter!  I want to help you gift beads, create the perfect jewelry, buy jewelry, or gift mixed-media art this year! We are starting out with a 30% OFF EARLY BIRD SALE for all of our lovely newsletter family first! The newsletter sale will begin at 9pm CST time tonight and go through tomorrow at Midnight CST. Your special code is "EARLYBIRD30" to be used at check out in any of our 3 shops-, and The shopping fun doesn't stop there! We will be continuing the sale for 20% OFF from Saturday- Monday at Midnight CST by using the code "XMAS20".

I am excited to announce that after 3 long years my jewelry design tutorials have FINALLY made it into Belle Armoire magazine! I am still waiting for my copy, but I am pretty sure this is the link for the current copy. I have some of the beads made, but need to make more as I am out of stock of some beads. Please feel free to contact me if you aren't finding the beads you would like :) 

All I want for Christmas is to have my boyfriend's ulcer healed.......
It's been awhile since we all probably looked at being healthy as a gift, right? What if you were suffering with a sickness you couldn't heal? What if you tried everything you knew how to do, but were still sick? Would you give anything to be well again? This is where we are with my boyfriend, Christian's health. He has been suffering with a stomach ulcer for almost the last year( it took us until a few months ago to realize that shit was the problem). We took him to a MD twice where they prescribed him 2 types of prescription medicines to try to heal the ulcer with no luck. Next we took him to an accupurcturist that did acupuncture and gave him Chinese herbs. She diagnosed him with a liver cyst. He took the herbs he was given, but he still wasn't feeling well. She wanted him to come in twice a week and her treatments would have cost us $1,000 for the month. We could not afford that so we tried to do our best to help him heal by having him drink  pure organic aloe juice, drink dandelion root, peppermint, and chamomile teas and continue or healthy vegetarian/vegan eating. I had a friend that put me in touch with a shaman that is 2 hours away from Kansas City. He has been practicing  ancient shaman techniques  from South America for over 20 years. His treatment starts out with doing a reading from ice to determine where the problem in Christian's body is. Next he will create a diet to help the body heal. Lastly he will do what is called "mouth work" which is a series of acupressure points in the mouth that will cause the body to dispel the toxins that are causing the sickness. The initial treatment will cost from $140-$180 and then the continued mouth work will be $60 a visit. I am doing this sale to help pay to get Christian to the Shaman so that he can be healed from his ulcer. He has become very depressed and barely wants to get out of bed. He has been struggling with eating as well because he is worried whatever he eats will hurt him. It breaks my heart to see my partner suffering with this. My car is also in of a new coil (like spark plugs) so that the engine runs properly ($60) and  I need of 2 more tires($200) so that we can safely travel the 4 hour round trip to take him to the shaman. So all I want for Christmas is to safely get Christian to the Shaman so that he can heal and be happy again. Let's all remember to count our blessings of health this year as we forget how much being sick can take over our lives.

Wishing you all the very best holiday season. Sending you all the most vibrant love and light,

Genea, The Third Eye Gypsy

Sunday, September 25, 2016

20% OFF SALE and Evolution from Genea Beads to Third Eye Gypsy

Genea Beads is now Third Eye Gypsy

Hello friends,

I have emerged out of the ashes and evolved into this beautiful being of light resonating at my highest level of consciousness. How exciting it is to feel fully alive and back in my element doing my art. You may have seen our new change a little while back, but here is our official announcement! What better way to celebrate a new positive change than with a sale to get things rolling! We're excited to offer a 20% OFF SALE now through Tuesday September 27th at Midnight CST. Use Coupon Code "THIRDEYE20" at checkout to receive your discount in our shopYou may have noticed that if you or that it will take you to the same place. I have merged my shops as far as my beads and mixed-media art go, but for now my jewelry is still in You may have also noticed that we have had to use "gypsys" instead of the proper spelling. Someone else already had that name so I did my best to make it easy and keep the name I wanted. I feel like this name really suits me and my evolution of spirit and creativity.I think it's the perfect new chapter for my work as I have really grown out of
"Genea Beads".

So what about the beads? you might ask. Well at the moment I am not currently making new glass work, but that doesn't mean this will be forever. The summer has been HOT and awful here in Kansas City, Missouri and I just needed a little break from my "old life". This new turn into mixed-media has opened so many new things in my life. I have been honored to join the mixed-media  Artistcellar design team. I feel like this new side step will allow me to grow in my glass art when I return to my torch. I can't wait to figure out ways to incorporate this new style into my glasswork. For now my new "tools" for art have been a paint brush with:acrylic paint, watercolors, paint markers, ink pad pigments, and some super awesome metallic paints. 

Fear not, friends! It wouldn't be a sale if we didn't offer our glasswork as well! So now is the time to load up on some of your favorites because now more than ever they really are one-of-a-kind! So adopt a new bead, enrich your soul, and create!

With deepest love and gratitude,

Genea, the Third Eye Gypsy

Friday, February 19, 2016

20% Off Moving sale! The next chapter....

Come help us pack up our beads and jewelry! I'm moving to the heart of Kansas City, Missouri in "Midtown" to write the newest chapter of my story. Check out our 20% Off Moving Sale February 19-21. Use coupon code "FLY FREE" at checkout to receive your 20% off discount. The sale will begin at Midnight CST Thursday night/Friday morning and run until midnight Sunday CST. and

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

20-30% Off Holiday Sale! Early Bird Sale for Newsletter subscribers!

Hello friends! 

It's been awhile, I know. I apologize for my absence as I have been recovering from my divorce. If you didn't already know about my huge life change that happened this summer you can read about it here. 

But we all know you are really here to find out about our sale, right?! Right! So what are the deets? Well if you are lucky enough to be a newsletter subscriber you get to shop EARLY! Yep, that's right! After you are stuffed full of holiday food you can shop at 8pm CST and get 30% off by using our subscriber only code! Join the mailing list HERE.

 Sales Details are as follows: Early Bird Subscriber sale (Sale begins at 8pm CST Thursday night) check your newsletter e-mail to  receive your special discount code. For Black Friday you can use the code "GBBF30" for 30% off(sale begins at Midnight CST) and if you happen to miss our early bird sale and Black Friday sale you can still get a super sweet 20% off discount Small business saturday- Cyber Monday by using the code "XMAS20"(Sale Begins at Midnight CST on Saturday). The sale is in both of our shops for beads and our jewelry. The sale will end at Midnight CST on December 1st. 

Don't make jewelry? Let us take that off of your plate! You can shop our jewelry shop for unique creations for all of those special people on your list!

Wishing you all the most wonderful kick off to the holidays enjoying time with friends, family, and loved ones. 

xoxo Genea

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Riding the Waves

Hello friends,

It's been too long, I know... I have been thinking of you and I have wanted to write, but couldn't sit myself in front of my computer. 

I have been.... struggling. Struggling a lot with life. Riding the waves of my emotions up and down. They go up and down throughout the day. Sometimes I'm plummeting to my doom and then other times I am rising up. I remember the strong and amazing person I was and still am. I remember that I am and have always been that person. That I don't need another person's support to remember that about myself, but sometimes..... I forget. I get stuck again in that struggle.

That is where my art is. Strangely stuck in that place where it should bring me healing and peace to create, but it's the opposite. I sit down to work. Everything feels weird. It reminds me of the past life I had as a fulltime lampworker where now I have to work a regular job in a warehouse as my main work. I sit down to try to create and try to turn on music and the same music that made me feel on top of the world makes me want to cry. I look at the ipad and phone that I used to receive messages on while I worked and it stares back at me with a blank stare. All of these things flood in as I tired to sit and create. I made myself at least sit for a half hour and when things feel like too much. I get up, turn everything off and leave the house. 

It's hard that all of the things that brought me so much joy and comfort are feeling strange and foreign to me. My lampworking, my hooping, my music. Things that brought me so much joy, growth, fulfillment. It just feels weird. I am trying to power through it and just force myself to face these things until they feel normal and good again, but I am struggling. 

So what happened between now and my last post? Well as you know I am in the process of a divorce that began in mid July. In that time I had a close friend that turned into a whirlwind passion filled romance for it to have ended just as magically as it began. As you can imagine that plunged me back into the sadness I didn't fully face at the beginning of my parting with my partner of 12 years. All of those emotions I was too distracted face came flooding in x2. I was devastated... again, but if you know anything about me... you know what a determined person I am. 

I signed up for a divorce care class at a local church and signed up for a therapist as well. So 2 nights of my week I seek healing through these places to "make me well" again as I call it. I hate being in this place of feeling so out of sorts, weak, and lost. I want to find the fastest exit the FUCK out of here and onto life where things feel "normal" again and things are back into place. 

In this strange new space I am alone for the first time in many years and by alone I just mean that  really all I have is myself. This is a new thing for me. I think somewhere along my life I missed this growth I was supposed to have inbetween 18-24. Some lost space after highschool and into my "college years". So the universe has seen fit to throw me back into that mindset to do the growth that I missed out on. My therapist put it so well. She told me excitedly that I get to do this with a more wise self on this journey. I guess it's like that thought process of "If the me that I was in highschool could talk to the me I am now" kind of thing. I dunno.

All I know is that this new space is so different. So... well.. new. It should be exciting, but at the moment it's kind of terrifying. It's that whole fear of the unknown thing I have, I guess. The thing where I am terrified of all bodies of water where you can't see the bottom. 

I am trying to have a new positive perspective on life, but as all things learning new thought pathways takes time for them to stick. I do realize that on this path I will get to not only re-discover the sleeping beauty that lies within, I will be able to build her stronger, and more beautiful that she has ever been. She will be a force with which to be reckoned, she will shine so much light that when she walks in a room the whole room will turn to her and feel her presence. She will be one of the most amazing people I have ever met. She will make the most beautiful art anyone has ever seen. She is in here healing and coming closer to the surface day by day.