You just never know what life will have in store for you.
A burn gives you what you need, not necessarily what you expect.
This past weekend I went to my first very regional burning man event in Topeka, Kansas. The regional burns take place in cities all over the country and Burning Man takes place in Nevada over Labor Day weekend. I was in a place where I camped with my " burn family"(close friends) where we shared memories, lived life and lived in a place where there is no money exchange(everything is gifting). These events follow the 10 Principles of Burning Man.
The week before I was supposed to go to this burn Ricky announced that he wanted to leave from our marriage. He wanted to travel and be a free spirit and that he had fallen in love with someone else. So after 12 years of being together (9 years of marriage) we will be parting ways.
Things are pretty intense as you might imagine after sharing things with someone for so many years. I will be completely starting over. I need to get a car, get a job with a stable income, and find a new place to live. I don't have established enough credit to get a car loan or even get a place. I am hoping to find a way to rent a house with some friends so I can keep Leeloo with me and still have a place to lampwork on the side. I would love to figure out more ideas to make my business more profitable so that I can continue to do it full time in the future, but at the moment I need to do whatever will get me the funding I need right now.
I have had some hiccups with my Etsy shop, but plan to get it back online soon and run a sale to help get raise funds for all of my expenses. It's been a tough last few months and I am so grateful for all of you that have been here to support me with your words of encouragement and purchasing my work.
I am just trying to take things one day at a time. It's hard. I feel like I have a world of things to conquer and that they all need to be done RIGHT NOW. I am just trying to chew off manageable bites each day to get to where I need to be. I just wanted to let you all know where I have been and the struggles I am facing in life right now. I hope to be creating along side looking for another job. I will post new work as I get it made.
I don't really know what else to write at the moment, but felt like I needed to get this out.
Thank you all for everything you do in my life.
With deepest gratitude,