Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Big Life Changes

You just never know what life will have in store for you.

A burn gives you what you need, not necessarily what you expect.

This past weekend I went to my first very regional burning man event in Topeka, Kansas. The regional burns take place in cities all over the country and Burning Man takes place in Nevada over Labor Day weekend. I was in a place where I camped with my " burn family"(close friends) where we shared memories, lived life and lived in a place where there is no money exchange(everything is gifting). These events follow the 10 Principles of Burning Man.

The week before I was supposed to go to this burn Ricky announced that he wanted to leave from our marriage. He wanted to travel and be a free spirit and that he had fallen in love with someone else. So after 12 years of being together (9 years of marriage) we will be parting ways. 

Things are pretty intense as you might imagine after sharing things with someone for so many years. I will be completely starting over. I need to get a car, get a job with a stable income, and find a new place to live. I don't have established enough credit to get a car loan or even get a place. I am hoping to find a way to rent a house with some friends so I can keep Leeloo with me and still have a place to lampwork on the side. I would love to figure out more ideas to make my business more profitable so that I can continue to do it full time in the future, but at the moment I need to do whatever will get me the funding I need right now. 

I have had some hiccups with my Etsy shop, but plan to get it back online soon and run a sale to help get raise funds for all of my expenses. It's been a tough last few months and I am so grateful for all of you that have been here to support me with your words of encouragement and purchasing my work. 

I am just trying to take things one day at a time. It's hard. I feel like I have a world of things to conquer and that they all need to be done RIGHT NOW. I am just trying to chew off manageable  bites each day to get to where I need to be. I just wanted to let you all know where I have been and the struggles I am facing in life right now. I hope to be creating along side looking for another job. I will post new work as I get it made. 

I don't really know what else to write at the moment, but felt like I needed to get this out.

Thank you all for everything you do in my life.

With deepest gratitude, 



Divya N said...

I was feeling totally frustrated today not knowing where my life was heading, but somehow after reading this post, I realise that I need to be thankful for what I have without cribbing for what I think I need. You do fabulous work and you will come back from this stronger. I dont have a big blog or lots of social media fans, but I can help you promote your work, in any little way I can. You can mail me with some of your new/existing work to put up on my blog which will hopefully introduce your work to a new audience

Lorelei Eurto said...

So sorry to hear the news Genea. When one door closes, another one opens. That's always the way so just try to remember that everything happens for a reason and although things may seem really overwhelming right now.... things will calm down and life will get back to normal in a while. Just take it day by day and know that we are all here for you and support you no matter what!!

elisabeth said...

So sorry to hear this Genea! Thinking good, peaceful thoughts for you!

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Divya- Thank you so much for your kind words. Thank you for your offer to help promote my work. That means a lot to me.

Lorelei- Thank you for your sympathy and encouragement. I know everything happens for a reason. Life will take me where I need to go. I am working on the day to day stuff.

Elizabeth- Thank you for your sympathy and well wishes.

xo Genea

Firefly Design Studio said...

Every challenge that life has brought my way has made me stronger and smarter. You will have new opportunities and adventures waiting for you when you are ready. I love your beads and was searching etsy yesterday for some wing dings. When you get some made, you can count on some $$$ from me!

Robin S. said...

Sad for your news but happy in another way for you. Obviously, you have your head on straight to get you where you need to be. . Your talent has allowed you to network and the right thing will just happen......you wait and see! This time next year we will be getting a post to let us know how good things have turned out. I am saying this in my "mom voice". Cheers to your new endeavors!

Linda said...

I am so sorry to hear this Genea. But I know you are strong and you will come through this even stronger. Just wish I could spare you the heartbreak through the passage. Sending hugs.

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Firefly Design Studio- Very true. My life has been the same way with challenges making me even stronger. I look forward to these new adventures in life. Thanks so much. Yeah, my Etsy is temporarily down. You can see all of my current work on my facebook page in my gallery. I can invoice orders if you let me know what you would like. https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10154125409268438.1073741851.111350358437&type=3

Robin S.- Thank you for your sympathy and encouraging words :) Yes, a post this time next year will be awesome to see how I am doing. Thanks so much for your positivity.

xo Genea

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Linda- Thanks so much for your support. xoxoxo

TesoriTrovati said...

Thinking of you Miss Genea. I know that there is nothing I can say that will take away the sting of what you are going through. It sucks. But knowing that you have people in the world that admire you and believe in you and wish you nothing but the best, people you may never have met, should be something. I am sending you waves of light and love as you find your new path, one that I hope will bring you the satisfaction and success that you deserve. Find your something good in all of this, even if it is hard to see right now. Enjoy the day. Erin

Marie Cramp said...

Genea, I haven't announced mine yet but I am going through the same thing. Divorce is a nasty horrible thing! With 4 kids even harder. We should talk sometime soon and share stories. Friends need to lean on each other and I am there for you. We may be lucky in love this next time around ❤️

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Thanks so much for your words of encouragement, Erin :) I appreciate you well wishes of positivity. I am trying to find goodness in every day. Some days are easier than others.

Marie, I'm sorry you are going through the same thing, Marie. My love and sympathy goes out to you. You will make it through this. We should. Spend lots of time with your kids, friends, and family. They all love you and will be there to catch you as you fall. I am here for you as well. We may be ;)

xo Genea

Carol Briody said...

What?! I had to blink and read twice. I'm speechless. It's hard to understand. If I wasn't a lady, more would spill onto this post.

Rebecca said...

Hi Genea, I am so truly sorry to read this. I am terrible for not commenting on blogs that I am a frequent reader of but I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and channelling as much hope and positivity as I can for you. Take care of yourself. You will get through this, with support and love around you, which I know you have. I am the child of a divorce so I have seen close up some of the challenges - and whilst I wouldn't wish it on anyone, I know you are a strong woman, whether you feel it now or not, and that strength and warmth will be reflected back to you right now, when you need it. Hugs. X x X

Mitzie Crider said...

I too am going through a divorce. The now and the future are scary. The future is also exciting to imagine. A chance to make a new you, a new me. I'll pray for you right now. The best of everything for you in this new life. You've got this!

Ema Kilroy said...

Genea I'm so sorry for this trial you are having to endure. I don't doubt your heart is brokend but it sounds like you also know that it will heal and you'll find happy days again. You are a beautiful soul and deserve happiness. I have no doubt you will find success whatever direction you take. ((Big Hugs)) Hang in, one day at a time.

Ann Schroeder said...

I have been noticing all the new things you've brought to your life lately that you are passionate about. It seems you were already in the process of creating the next chapter in your life, so it's like you have a head start! I can only imagine things are challenging right now, but you have such a wonderful spirit to help you through. I am one of the many people who wish you all good things and strength! I look forward to what I hope is a time of growth that brings you to a wonderful new place in life.

Cory Tompkins said...

Sorry to hear your news Genea. I'm happy to help any way I can, even if it's buying beads :)

sharon said...

I'm sorry to hear this Genea, and sending positive thoughts and energy your way. If I can help to promote your work or help in any way I will. Time heals, but most of all love, and your friends sound amazing, and you have US!

KraftyKaren said...

Keep your head held high sweetie. You will find that job and place to live. God is watching over you.

When you get your shop back online, definitely let me know and I will help you promote as much as possible.

Also please keep us updated.

All The Best,

PyxeeStyx said...

I have absolute faith that you will come though this stronger than ever! Let your light shine!

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Carol- It's ok. Everything will be fine. It makes me think of this quote ;) "I don't spew profanities, I enunciate them clearly, like a fucking lady". ha ha. xo Genea

Hey Rebecca,

Thank you for your sympathy. It's no worries. I know people are busy. Thank you so much for your positivity. I will take care of myself. I know I will get through this. I have all of you lovely people for support, thank you! Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! xoxoxo

I'm so sorry to hear that, Mitzie. Love and light to you. They are, but I'm sure it will all be worth it. I'll pray for you as well. I wish the same for you. You've got this as well! xoxo

Ema, Thanks so much for your sympathy. I know it will heal and happy days are happening. It's just a lot of highs and lows. Thanks so much for your loving words of encouragement. ((Big hugs)). Always one step at a time. xo Genea

Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Ann, I am totally in the process of another growth spurt in my life. I guess I do have a head start :) They are, but as challenging as they are it will all be worth it. Great things come from hard work and perseverance. Thank you so much for your well wishes. I can't wait to enjoy the journey to my new and amazing self. Thank you, my friend. xoxo Genea

Cory, Thanks so much for your support. I just got my Etsy shop back open and full of new work :) www.genea.etsy.com xo Genea

Thanks for your sympathy, Sharon. I just got my Etsy shop back up and running. You can find it here www.genea.etsy.com . Any promotion would be greatly appreciated :) Thanks so much for doing that. Time does heal. I do have very many loving and wonderful people in my life. I'm so glad to have you all as well. xo Genea

Thanks for your words of encouragement, Karen :) I know it will all work out. It's just crazy when you can't see things coming together. I know God is with me. My shop is back up and running thankfully! www.genea.etsy.com I appreciate it. I sure will. xoxo Genea

Lisa Peters Russ said...

Hey.. I am so sorry to hear that you are going to have to go through all the hard stuff that comes with ending a marriage but I am sure that when the dust settles you will have a really nice future ahead.. You are super talented and seem as though you have a great support system around you - its those pesky life expenses, finding shelter and transportation that always seem to get in the way. That will be the hardest part -- mending your heart will happen with time and its always better! the universe does really work in mysterious ways and when you are down just try to remind yourself the future is going to be awesome.

If there is anything I can do from way over here.. that you think I might be able to .. please let me know --
Sending you virtual hugs and positive thoughts and hoping that the hard stuff is over quickly without too much frustration.. without too many lows and some surprises that bring you joy when you aren't expecting it!!!


Genea Crivello-Knable said...

Hey Lisa,

Thanks for your sympathy. I am sure things will all work out as they should. Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement. Yeah, those life expenses do add up. I know the future will hold some amazing things. Thanks so much for your support, Lisa it means a lot! Thanks so much for your hugs and positivity. I have already been experiencing some joys that have been counter balancing the lows. I am very lucky to have some amazing people in my life supporting me. xoxo Genea

lunedreams said...

That so totally blows. I feel sick to my stomach for you just reading it! That shit is like a punch in the gut. I am so sorry, I've been there and it physically hurts and hurts your heart (and you're being uprooted to boot--having to worry about that when someone has torn your heart out is a really tough hill to climb). But I'm sure you already know that it will get better--and I'm glad that you're sharing it with friends, friends really do lighten loads. Keep doing that! You have so much to offer the world (and an employer!) and I have no doubt the things you have already invested in yourself will pay off soon and you'll be on your feet again and on the road back to wholeness. (Sending you some mental Gloria Gaynor right now...)

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